Sh3roin

May I go now? Do you think the time is right? May I say goodbye to pain filled days and endless lonely nights? I've lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be. So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free? I didn't want to go at first, fought with all my might. But something seems to draw me now, to warm and living light. I want to go. I really do. It's difficult to stay, but I will try as best I can, to live just one more day. To give you time to care for me, and share your love and fears. I know you're sad and afraid, because I see your tears. I wont be far, I promise that And I hope you'll always know, that my spirit will be close to you, wherever you may go. Thank you for loving me, you know I love you too. That's why it's hard to say goodbye and end this life with you. So hold me now just one more time and let me hear you say, because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today.

It's hard to walk, but I'm not tired. Light is all I desire. There is an obstacle before me again. I want to go to light, but they don't let me. There are no chains, no walls. Only knowledge that I'm a prisoner. But that's enough to chain me. No need for iron. No stones. Enough but will-power. I am your prisoner. Hands begin to trob, when around my wrists there are tensing silky streads with power of steel. Hands don't move. Also legs refuse to move. Still the light is so near. I know. This could be my escape. If only I would be able to get over there. Tear my arm. That don't react. All right. If they don't let me go voluntary free, I'll go by force. They don't want me to be happy. They're evil. Have to bring a sacrifice 'I think' when I bite my arm. Interesting. It's not hurting. Flesh hatches layer by layer, lettin' me see whitely glowing bone. And for a moment, there's a thought, that even I have a power to want.. It...

Saving moments. We miss back Us. Our greatest evenings. It's good, it Was. Back then, in past. Just looked and smiled. This kiss, this last. Separated for a while. But I'm so sorry, This promise failed. And you're so sorry, This "while" went long. And now I'm here, Thinkin' deep. And you are there, We're both too weak. Can't be together, But we will want. No Us, not never. We just can not.

Kui me oleme koos, surmani koos. Siis suudan ma lennata kõrgelt. Kuid olles eemal Sinust nii kaua. Siis tunnen, et kukun taas merre. Olen kui lind, kes lendamist vajab. Sina oled mu tiivad ja hing. Kuid raske see on kui vihma sajab. Ei suudaks, kui jätaks Sa mind. Üksi ei taha, ei tohi ma lennata. Olles koos vaid ellu taas jään. Sina vaid suudad seda kõike anda. See on see elu, mida ma näen. Võrdlen ja parandan ennast ja mind. Mõtlen, et tahaks nii paljut. Kuid tõeliselt vajan ma ainult Sind, kelle nimel hüppaks alla ka kaljult. Tunded on kõik, mis päriselt loeb. Keegi hukata, lindu mu sees ei saa. Armastus, igatsus, hinge taas poeb. Tõusen lendu ja enam iial ei leba ma maas.

Katkendlik muusika, rikutud maailm. Mina istun ja külmetan, mõtlen. Kõige üle, mis üldse olemas on. Ning enda murede eest jällegi põiklen. Mida on vaja ning mida vaid tahan. Tegelikult ei tea, ma jälle ei tea. Vähest, nii natuke ainult ma vajan. Kuid selleks kõike halba ka taluma pean. Kirjutan, õpin ja kuulan. Kuid mõtted uitavad mujal.. Keskenduda, jah jälle ei suuda. Mida siis seekord mul jälle vaja? Küsin endalt, kuid vastust ei saa. Teised ei tea, loomulik ka. Miks minu mõtteid nad mõistmagi peaks? Ei pea, neid mina vaid teada saan. Hingan sisse ja välja ning vahetan lugu. Eksamiraamatu laua pealt võtan. Mõtelda üritan, šokolaadi panen suhu. Õppima pean ning kõik muu peast pühin.

Trickling blood and slashed veins, Beautiful room, ruined by the red. All she needed was a little change. So now she's dead and lying in bed. Death, it's a real big change. Life's gone, but she doesn't regret. Ever again, there's no more revenge. She knew, they will forget. All the bad, it disappeared. From the moment her heart stopped. All the insults, she frequently heard. Forever, to the past are locked.

I miss you like never before. I need you like I used to need. I want you with all my force. I don't have you, so my heart bleeds. You were mine, like forever and ever. I lost you, I was naive and stupid. Serenity, again it controlled me like a fever. Now the door of your heart is locked. No way out, no way in, still in the same place. I'm stuck in the present, cannot move on. Only falling down, from the same place. And my mind sets itself off.. I'm not able to think, to live. I see you, I see you in my mind. And from now i got nothing to give. I was so fucking blind..