Sh3roin

May I go now? Do you think the time is right? May I say goodbye to pain filled days and endless lonely nights? I've lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be. So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free? I didn't want to go at first, fought with all my might. But something seems to draw me now, to warm and living light. I want to go. I really do. It's difficult to stay, but I will try as best I can, to live just one more day. To give you time to care for me, and share your love and fears. I know you're sad and afraid, because I see your tears. I wont be far, I promise that And I hope you'll always know, that my spirit will be close to you, wherever you may go. Thank you for loving me, you know I love you too. That's why it's hard to say goodbye and end this life with you. So hold me now just one more time and let me hear you say, because you care so much for me, you'll let me go today.

It's hard to walk, but I'm not tired. Light is all I desire. There is an obstacle before me again. I want to go to light, but they don't let me. There are no chains, no walls. Only knowledge that I'm a prisoner. But that's enough to chain me. No need for iron. No stones. Enough but will-power. I am your prisoner. Hands begin to trob, when around my wrists there are tensing silky streads with power of steel. Hands don't move. Also legs refuse to move. Still the light is so near. I know. This could be my escape. If only I would be able to get over there. Tear my arm. That don't react. All right. If they don't let me go voluntary free, I'll go by force. They don't want me to be happy. They're evil. Have to bring a sacrifice 'I think' when I bite my arm. Interesting. It's not hurting. Flesh hatches layer by layer, lettin' me see whitely glowing bone. And for a moment, there's a thought, that even I have a power to want.. It

Saving moments. We miss back Us. Our greatest evenings. It's good, it Was. Back then, in past. Just looked and smiled. This kiss, this last. Separated for a while. But I'm so sorry, This promise failed. And you're so sorry, This "while" went long. And now I'm here, Thinkin' deep. And you are there, We're both too weak. Can't be together, But we will want. No Us, not never. We just can not.

Kui me oleme koos, surmani koos. Siis suudan ma lennata kõrgelt. Kuid olles eemal Sinust nii kaua. Siis tunnen, et kukun taas merre. Olen kui lind, kes lendamist vajab. Sina oled mu tiivad ja hing. Kuid raske see on kui vihma sajab. Ei suudaks, kui jätaks Sa mind. Üksi ei taha, ei tohi ma lennata. Olles koos vaid ellu taas jään. Sina vaid suudad seda kõike anda. See on see elu, mida ma näen. Võrdlen ja parandan ennast ja mind. Mõtlen, et tahaks nii paljut. Kuid tõeliselt vajan ma ainult Sind, kelle nimel hüppaks alla ka kaljult. Tunded on kõik, mis päriselt loeb. Keegi hukata, lindu mu sees ei saa. Armastus, igatsus, hinge taas poeb. Tõusen lendu ja enam iial ei leba ma maas.

Katkendlik muusika, rikutud maailm. Mina istun ja külmetan, mõtlen. Kõige üle, mis üldse olemas on. Ning enda murede eest jällegi põiklen. Mida on vaja ning mida vaid tahan. Tegelikult ei tea, ma jälle ei tea. Vähest, nii natuke ainult ma vajan. Kuid selleks kõike halba ka taluma pean. Kirjutan, õpin ja kuulan. Kuid mõtted uitavad mujal.. Keskenduda, jah jälle ei suuda. Mida siis seekord mul jälle vaja? Küsin endalt, kuid vastust ei saa. Teised ei tea, loomulik ka. Miks minu mõtteid nad mõistmagi peaks? Ei pea, neid mina vaid teada saan. Hingan sisse ja välja ning vahetan lugu. Eksamiraamatu laua pealt võtan. Mõtelda üritan, šokolaadi panen suhu. Õppima pean ning kõik muu peast pühin.

Trickling blood and slashed veins, Beautiful room, ruined by the red. All she needed was a little change. So now she's dead and lying in bed. Death, it's a real big change. Life's gone, but she doesn't regret. Ever again, there's no more revenge. She knew, they will forget. All the bad, it disappeared. From the moment her heart stopped. All the insults, she frequently heard. Forever, to the past are locked.

I miss you like never before. I need you like I used to need. I want you with all my force. I don't have you, so my heart bleeds. You were mine, like forever and ever. I lost you, I was naive and stupid. Serenity, again it controlled me like a fever. Now the door of your heart is locked. No way out, no way in, still in the same place. I'm stuck in the present, cannot move on. Only falling down, from the same place. And my mind sets itself off.. I'm not able to think, to live. I see you, I see you in my mind. And from now i got nothing to give. I was so fucking blind..

Armastan valuga, vihkan heaga, andestan paludes, unustan teades. Ütlen valimatult, valin oskamatult, oskan tahtmatult, tahan mõtlematult, mõtlen segaselt, segan võimatult, võin aga kõike.

How many sorrows, how many tears, there in your life, how much you can take? So much, some happy, depending on fears. Is this smile, on your face, now true or a fake? Beautiful people, wonderful feelings, all in your heart, believing life's good. Then anger, frustration, seeing no meaning. Broken rebel, comes out, no feelings at all. Thinking over, being pessimistic, then turn around. Outer view, there's more, life's giving it all. So living it forward, suddenly you're found. No sorrows, no tears, never gonna fall.

Too many mistakes, again, I make. Saying, behaving, but brakin' it up. All the beautiful things, I always can ruin. I'm like a disease, what you have to release..

One first missed call, it really paralyses. Feel it through the wall, it pretty terrifies. But going under, its information. And there's an wonder, what's its translation. Imaginary fear, being secret chased. It's over there, with horror filled up face. One more missed call, it is your own number. Screaming there : don't want no more. All to silence it's anger. You did suppose, one half more meter. Eyes deeply closed, and open water.. * Ajendatud filmidest: "One missed call" ( 2004 ) ; "One missed call 2" ( 2005 ) - Jaapan. *

It was summer, it was warm, they had fun and so did I. Every single july of all of my years had been exactly the same. All those smiles and faces and they and you. Some saw my look and there was something in my eyes. Then in the middle of that flawless day. I ran away without saying goodbye. And then the rain came down. I just wished that it won't rain for long. They looked me for days and searched me for weeks. After waiting for years, hope was going to leave. Some long for me still, some did cry and forgot. How could I go, you ask me and think and you want to know. My answer's that everything has got it's edge. I got hurt, won't tell you how, and then I just went. I was gone with pain and tears and rain on my face. Now only something in my eyes can tell my past. And I've been away so long. Walking in stations, buying tickets and then, sitting there still, watching trains pass by.. Still staying here with something in my eyes. This rain on that summer on a gorgeous

Unstoppable. Evilness. (New and improved version) There had been some major problems. Irreparable, unexplainable. Since you wanted bad to me. Since I knew, that you wanted to destroy me, and soon. I had to show up who I really am. What I had been hiding for oh so long.. That's the day. When I saw you there. Next to that closet. My hunger. My anger. These against you. All coming up. For sixteen years, I've been pushing it down. Again, again, again. And again. But now.. I think. Everyone cavil. Keep aloof. Despise. And you, my dear. Actually you're nonentity. No one will miss you. I'm sure. It could be your happy ending.. Yes. It could. And I'm good. I can save you from this! Off this non-existence. Right? Right. And I'm doing it. In this very moment. Recklessly throwing my hair over my shoulder. Then, I gaze. And you see. You see me. And fear. That sweet fear in your eyes. As you know my little secret, as you know all about me.. As because this fear is so swee